Just some thoughts

I get asked 2 questions a lot:

#1 How is Zeta?
No matter how many times I get asked it still catches me off guard.  There are relatively good days....and I love to answer - "She's doing great today!"  Usually, what that means is she is having a much better day than the day before.  You see, with Zeta, it is most often a day to day existence.  We compare this day to the day before and go from there.  Some days are good, some days are bad.  Some days seem unbearable and others make us infinitely grateful. More than likely, if you ask me this question my answer will be - "She's doing ok." or "She's great!" or "She hasn't had a great day."  Any answer other than that will most likely take a few hours to explain:) Just know that we are always thankful for the prayers said on her behalf! 

#2 How are you?
There was a time that I struggled to answer this question too.  I felt I should always answer, "I'm fine."  I mean no one wants to hear any less than that...but truthfully, there were many times that I wasn't fine.... I was just a shell making it through the day/hour/minute.  If you've followed my blog you know what I mean.  Thankfully, I finally realized that in order to be a better mother, a better wife, and just a better person that sometimes I have to take care of my own needs.  What this means for me is that I have taken better control of my health and I take time for me.  Sometimes it leaves me feeling incredibly guilty - BUT in the bigger picture I see that it greatly benefits my children, my marriage, my life. We're always told that in order to be able to love someone else you must first love yourself and that in order to be able to take care of someone else you have to take care of yourself first.  Think about why (on a plane) they tell you that you should put your oxygen mask on before putting it on your child.......the obvious reason is that you are no good to your child if you pass out first.  The same is very true in life.  If your head is barely above water your fear of drowning is so great that you're of little use to the others in your life.  Remember, the saying "If Momma ain't happy nobody's happy!"  So what productive things are you doing to improve your life?